An Ex-students account of a class in Japa Meditation



The vilest experience you can witness

So, you arrive at the centre to be greeted by people with broad smiles on their faces, some will come at you with arms opened wide and hugging you like you’re their long-lost family member, they don’t even know your surname, I suppose you could call it love bombing. People will be standing around chatting, having tea, listening and hanging on every word of the teacher, like children listening to their favourite story book being read to them.

Then everyone will be ushered into the classroom for the class to begin, people pick a seat, get their scarves ready to begin, you can feel the anticipation, but also a very strong/strange feeling of nervousness!!! Now the games will start, depending on the mood of the teacher of course, so for drama the teacher will sit quietly staring at everyone for a few moments and maybe mumble to themselves and then after the nervousness has built up enough by the students, it will be announced that the energy is not right and the teacher will  randomly start moving certain students into different seats, and maybe a few announcements about the energy being very heavy and it’s going to be a heavy night !!!  Now You can look out!!!

The teacher will start to talk about a topic, it could be absolutely anything, depending on the impact the teacher wants to make it could be a bit of fun, but it always changed, and you can feel that some poor student is going to be picked on in some way. You will hear the teacher now approach an issue that is very private to that person, watching as that student will be made stand up in front of the whole class it could be their relationship/marriage, sex life, health, maybe childhood abuse, family issues or simply something that the student believes. You will watch, and I must admit in pure horror that student’s life being made public, you will watch them humiliated, you will see and feel the tears building up in the student, you won’t comment or ask questions as that would draw the attention to you, sometimes that teacher could be screaming at the student and your sitting there with a lump in your throat, praying you’re not next. You can see the fear, shame, and complete breakdown of the student and all the time your being told that this is for the students own good??? To move an energy??? You look around at the other students and some look terrified, some just taking it all in, still hanging on the teacher’s every word and you’re like WTF??? At this stage the poor student at the brunt of the attack looks completely depleted and exhausted and streams of tears running down their face, physically shaking as they are bombarded with their own life been thrown at them in front of all these strangers, you are watching someone being mentally and emotionally broken down, watching their innermost life experiences used to not only control them but to control an entire classroom, your watching and witnessing bullying, manipulation and mental abuse in the vilest way!!! A part of you wants to say something just anything to help that student but you know you won’t as I said you don’t want to be next!!! You’re sitting there with your heart racing, what the hell is that student feeling??? What is that student thinking?? Can they even think?? Is this what the teacher wants?? How could someone do this to another human being???   How could a teacher not see that the student was clearly suffering at that moment?? Could a teacher be sure that this sort of public attack wouldn’t permanently damage a student’s mentality??

Now this attack could go on for the entire class or it would stop, and everyone would be told to put their scarves on and close their eyes to start meditating. As you close your eyes, you take a sneak look at that student and watch their hands shaking as they pull up their scarf hiding their face and tears. You don’t really feel like meditating, you just feel so sickened in your stomach. Meditation is supposed to clear your mind, how the hell can you relax and clear your mind after witnessing something like that?? Was that the plan?? But at least when your eyes are closed and supposedly meditating nobody is going to be screamed at. During the meditation, you will hear the constant sniffles of that student. After the meditation nobody speaks, and the plate of fruit is passed around and then the teacher might say something funny and people start talking again.

Now for the truly f**ked up part, after the class when everyone heads out for a cup of tea the teacher will approach the student who has been torn apart earlier and explain to them one to one why that had to be done, and the teacher twisting and turning everything so the student will truly believe that it had to be done, that it was the students fault that this extreme measure had to be taken for whatever reason for their own good. For example, to help them get over whatever issue or trauma the teacher had been screaming at them about.  Even though everyone can see that the student is now clearing traumatised and shaken after such an attack. The teacher may even hug that student. I have heard that students then drove home alone in this confused, shaken and extremely upset state.

Now if anyone out there can justify something like this, in my opinion, I seriously think that you need professional help. I have been told stories about attacks like this, but I also witnessed an attack like this and I can tell you that even though I was just sitting there watching this person been mentally striped away, that it was one of the most horrendous and terrifying experiences I have ever witnessed. And I even feel ashamed that I didn’t speak up on that night but as being a student at the time I was terrified. But I am speaking up now. As a grown adult that I allowed this to happen to another human being still haunts me. So, if the teachers that participated in this sort of teaching really believe that they did no wrong, well I think it speaks volumes about these people!!! What sort of mentality have they?? Are they really going to justify this sort of behaviour??



2 Responses

  1. Mental and emotional abuse to this degree happens in Tibetan Buddhism also, but in a much more devious way. Mostly the teacher scapegoats a student. Ore evil is a way for people to be in TB in Tibetan Buddhism under the excuse of detachement.
    Teachers/ Rinpoches usely take out the people who came for insight to some severe issues, because TB Buddhism claimed to give insight and help. After somone has spoken out about emotional abuse they are usely called crazy westeners.
    The only abuse that counts as abuse is sexual, although I think emotional abuse coming from a whole group is more damaging.

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  2. Oh yes, I’ve heard a few stories concerning mental abuse too. It seems that one of the major priorities were the trips to India. From what I saw, everyone who joined that Japa group was eventually encouraged to go to India at least once. It was said that India is such a holy place, such a sacred place etc. You were convinced that if you go to India, you could get great blessings, great healing, improve your life, resolve this or that situation, improve your karma, bla bla etc.etc. Looking back, I think that the trips to India was part and parcel of the whole thing. The actual Japa meditation was just a means to an end.To get perple to go to India. Didn’t Sashi Dubey offer financial support in the setting up of Japa Centers? To teach, it didn’t seem to matter what qualifications you had etc., as long as you got in more people. More people = More customers? Was Japa Meditation merely the vehicle in which people were turned into willing customers?. People were turned into customers who were willing to pay massive amounts to go to India? Part of Shashi Dubeys deliberate plan? The big money is in the West.
    On a trip to India, by all accounts what you will get is to see a big river which is considered holy and throw some stuff into it as part of a ritual. You go to various “holy places” and do various mad things like get to get your coconuts blessed – whatever that is about, and pour some milk over a phallic shaped stone, as if this is going to improve your life in away way. Imagine doing this in Ireland – You might as well go down to the Liffey there and throw some milk and a letter into it with a few quid and think something magical is going to happen in your life, imagine going to your local priest and asking him to bless your coconut…
    By all accounts what you could get is boils on your ass for sitting on a ten hour bus journeys partly along crumbling climbing roads with a steep drop at one side. I’ve hear people say the they’ed see the cars that fell over the edge way down below them, but that they’re all so hyped up on Mantras they think that nothing bad is going to happen to them. For all your money, what you are the most likely to get on your trip to India, is a fairly severe bout of diarrhoea, and it’s not the sort of bout that you will have any control over…without medication – But that’s all grand cause it means you have having a “healing”… Oh yeah and best of all you’ll get to meet the great Shashi Dubey, and you mayeven meet him one to one for a “healing”…………………
    Anyway has no one ever wondered, if going to India for ten days is so healing and so spiritually advantageous to you, if India is portrayed as such a Holy land, with so many blessings, then why are the majority of people actually living in India faced with so many hardships??? Why can’t they get all these blessings???????? Was there an economic decision on the part of the “holy ones” to export the best blessings out of the country, out to the highest bidders??
    An article published today in The Washington Post about India, paints a very different picture to the rose tinted picture portrayed in Shashi Dubeys itinerary and advertisement for the Indus Routes India trips. It shows the reality of India. It highlights just one of India’s many problems; Rape and child rape. After reading this you may think twice about how spiritual and holy India is…you might begin to see a more realistic picture. You may not be rushing out to spend your money to get there. Here are some excerpts from the article:

    Vidhi Doshi
    The Washington Post – ‎24‎ ‎July‎ ‎2018
    ‘What is rape, Mom?’: A small town in India grapples with how to protect children

    “Child rape and sexual violence have long been common in India, a country of 1.3 billion people, along with other forms of child abuse such as child marriage, child labor and the trafficking of children…..”

    India … “a country where sexual violence has become endemic. Nearly 39,000 rapes were reported in India in 2016, according to police data. Child rapes jumped 82 percent that year, to more than 19,000.”
    “Politicians and civic leaders for years have struggled to find a cause and a solution to what has become known as India’s rape crisis. Are patriarchal attitudes toward sex to blame? Or the impunity for perpetrators?….”

    “But rape is thought to be hugely under reported in the country, and it is hard to say whether the increased numbers of reported rapes reflect an actual rise in incidents.” According to experts, they are likely to have spiked due to an expansion in India’s legal definition of rape in 2012, as well as more reporting and awareness of the issue.”

    “Gajipur is a maze of haphazard buildings built on top of dust and dirt about 20 miles outside New Delhi. Waves of migrant laborers have settled here over the years, looking for work in the capital. Levels of poverty vary, but nobody here is rich. Stray cows roam the streets, children play cricket in garbage dumps, and an underground trade of narcotics thrives, as evidenced by the men crumpled in stupors on the town’s main road.”
    “And now, for the town’s children, the specter of assault looms large. Half a dozen children said in interviews that they were sleeping badly because of scary dreams in which either they or their siblings were abducted……”

    For today’s full article in the Washington post visit:

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